everybody's boring

I was thinking I should write a blog because I haven't in a while. Actually that's not the reason. Nick has been telling me that I should for a while. I decided in this blog I will not erase or hit the backspace button on any of it and just write what comes to mind first. I want to go to bed so this might not be very long. So far so good without a typeo. very ironic that my first typo was on the word typo, completely unintentional. hmm. I hear people say a lot that their life is boring and they need a change. Actually I don't hear anyone say that to me personally but I think people do think that or it has at least become a cliche. I think everyone makes their life out to be so much worse than everyone else's when really it isn't. I mean is there one person out there that doens't think that? And they know their life is exciting and meaningful and worthwhile and they live their life with no regrets. I think no regrets is the key part to that sentence. I mean all I did physically today was look for work, get my haircut, and watch 6 or so episodes of Lost in attempt to get ready for the final season on tuesday. That doens't sound too riveting but I also talked to Michelle for a while maybe an hour and forty-five minutes ish. She loves me a lot and really helps me out with things. It's hard for me to admit that someone is smarter than me, which is weird because I'm sure a lot of people are. I always just thought I knew everything about life and the real world and morals and all those sorts of things well I was always more confident that I knew more about that stuff then everyone else and I still do sort of feel that way. Michelle just makes me understand a lot of things I wasn't aware of or something that I did. And if someone is able to convince you to believe what they are saying then they are smarter than you. She helps me analyze why something bothers me, which I've learned is so much better than just ignoring it or saying something nice to make me think about it. Because saying something nice would work as well, but I'm glad she goes the critical route in the end. I think this is why I'm so happy with my life because of her. And building a strong relationship is a lot more complicated than I thought and I'm more glad than ever that it's with Michelle. It's perfect the way we mesh and benefit each other's lives. I feel it grows so much more every time we talk and it makes me want to be with her forever. I understand that this may sound cliche and gushy to every man reading this, but I honestly feel that it's true even if it sounds like a fairy-tale. I'm working on making things sound different and expressing what I'm really thinking and the only way to do that is by writing and talking about it. There are certain ways that I thought between the years of 17 and 20 that made me think nothing will change my mind about this or I can't get any smarter than I am now mainly because I was watching a lot of Seinfeld. But when I actually see myself becoming a better person because of Michelle or better with myself on the inside. I don't even know what to say about that, but it's awesome. But yes I was talking about people's lives in general and how they think everyone else in the world is jumping out of buildings to save people and diagnosing illnesses and everything else. I'm not saying there aren't people that are doing that, but I'm sure they have problems of their own or maybe they hate having to be the hero maybe they want your life. I'm being very vague on what my point is, but I never really had a point I was just going to write what I was thinking and here I am. Trying to think of something wise to say. I would say don't glorify other people's lives to make you feel worse about yours if anything be glad that you're in america and not a starving country and don't waste your life stressing and sulking because you're only on earth for a fraction of a second. Time is flying by lately for me. No really time feels like it's flying.